I talked about Ben getting sick from daycare the first time here. Well, that was a walk in the park compared to this nasty virus. He has had a fever for about three days now accompanied with nasty congestion in his nose and chest. Poor guy. He struggles sleeping and nursing. We have been doing all we can - humidifier, steam shower, saline drops, bulb syringe, Tylenol, etc. He has been to the doctor. I stayed home with him yesterday, and Dan is home with him today.
The hardest thing other than watching Ben being sick is knowing that daycare put him there. I am not saying that my daycare is evil or anything - they have been great so far. And I know that they have rules in place regarding laundry and washing, and they keep things clean. Ben is going to get sick no matter how great their germ policy is. His job is basically grabbing things, sucking his hands, and putting things into his mouth. But if daycare put Ben in the sick bed, and I put Ben in daycare, I am essentially putting him in the sick bed myself.
Seeing him suffer has made me ask myself all sorts of questions - should I have researched nanny shares more? Should I try to look for more home daycares with less kids? I texted this to a friend in a panic:
I know I am not the first person on the planet to have a sick kid. I am sure I have a lot of this in store. I also know that I can have a flair for the melodramatic. It is just hard knowing that if I was at home with him, he would be happier right now. Basically, I am throwing myself a pity party. With brownies and tears.