When I graduated from college, I weighed about 150. For the record, I am 5'8". My sister was doing Weight Watchers, and she inspired me to do it as well. We were living together for the majority of the summer, and it was awesome. It was actually easy to lose weight when I was 22 years old, had nothing else to worry about, and had someone doing it too for support, etc. My sister would actually do most of the meal planning. It was honestly the best. When I started law school in the fall, I was down to 122, which is the lowest weight I have ever been and ever will be. That is when I met Dan. Poor bastard. He thought he was snagging a skinny girl.
|This is me when I graduated college.|
Just kidding. I'm actually 40 weeks PG here.
Then it all went downhill. Physically, I mean. Otherwise, I was very happy. Dan and I got Shelby, and very soon after we got married, we bought a house in the burbs. This all equaled a weight gain for me. I wasn't walking to work anymore or going to the gym immediately after work. I also could not stop eating the way I did on our honeymoon, which was whatever I wanted all of the time. I would go through periods where I would lose some weight, but by the time I got pregnant with Ben, I weighed 142.
I feel like I should mention at this point that Dan kept getting thinner after we got married. It was like I gained every pound he lost. His weight loss was because he started doing marathons after we moved to DC. He also gave up most dairy and alcohol to help with his training and some stomach issues. I was tricked! I thought I was marrying an on-the-trim-side-of-average weighing man. What I got was this insanely fit thin guy. UGH.* So the crazy person in me feels like if Dan loses weight, I am in comparison bigger. I keep hearing the line from the JT song - I couldn't get any bigger, with anyone else beside of me! It's like he's my mirror. A-whoa-oh. (p.s. How self-centered is JT? "You reflect me, I love that about you?" Geez.)
Of course, if I were happy with myself, it wouldn't matter if Dan actually weighed negative pounds. But that is neither here, nor there.
I gained about 28 lbs during my pregnancy, putting me at about 170 when I gave birth. I was actually "lucky" that I had one of those pregnancies with the terrible heartburn and weird stomach stuff. Different foods did not appeal to me (like Mexican, which is normally a fav!), and I couldn't let myself get too full. And I still managed to gain 28 lbs. If I would have had a different pregnancy, I probably would have gained so much more. At the time, I hated it. Now, I am thankful.
After I had Ben, the weight came off pretty quickly. I felt this false sense of security. Like I could eat whatever I wanted, and still lose weight. After about a month, I actually started gaining weight back. What the what??? I was breastfeeding non-stop. Didn't the celebs say I could breastfeed, eat whatever I wanted, and still lose weight? THE LIES!
So, right now I weigh (DRUM ROLL) 146.5 lbs. About 4 and a half lbs. from where I was before I was pregnant. However, I would like to be thinner than I was when I got pregnant. I want to be my old self. My goal is to lose about 15 lbs. How am I going to do it? Seriously. Tell me how please.
Throughout the years, I have gone back to weight watchers. Usually, I would do it online. But it just wasn't ever the same without having my sister with me. I actually managed to lose about six pounds before I got pregnant with Ben by tracking my calories on the My Fitness Pal app on my iPhone. (I had gained a bit more weight then due to a pregnancy that ended in an early miscarriage). So my plan is to try My Fitness Pall again. It's free (if you don't count my cell phone bill), and pretty easy to keep track of. The complicating issue is breastfeeding. I have to find that magic number of calories that gets me to lose weight, but not diminish my breast milk production.
By crunching numbers, I came up with 1800 calories a day. I looked up various online calculators (here and here) to get the number of calories I burn in a day basically doing nothing. That number is about 1700. I read that a person burns up to approximately 500 calories a day breastfeeding. I feel like that is the upper end, so I factored 350 calories burned from breastfeeding. That puts my daily calories burned at 2050. If I keep to 1800, that puts me at a negative of 250 calories a day. There are 3500 calories in a pound. That means I should lose half of a pound each week. It's a slow weight loss, but I don't want to risk messing with my breastfeeding.
You probably have noticed that I haven't talked about exercising. I am not factoring that in too much, because I don't exercise that much. I get on the treadmill a bit during lunch at work, and sometimes on the weekend, but that's it. During my maternity leave, I would take Shelby and Ben for long luxurious walks, but those are only on the weekends now.
So here we go! I am basically like - can I start tomorrow please? I bought some chocolate croissants for my book club meeting and there are some leftovers at home....NO! I start now!
*I am obviously being a bit sarcastic here. It is awesome having a good-lookin' husband. I am just jealous. I love that he is motivated and doing something that makes him feel good about himself.